I was out shopping for myself, which is a rare event. I found myself struggling to buy a much needed quality pair of sneakers, and dress shoes. I was going back and forth on how much to spend. Typically I go to Walmart and buy a $12 pair and call it a day. However they weren’t giving me the support I needed from being on my feet most of the day. I asked a friend, “why am I struggling to buy these for myself?” Her reply “ because you don’t value yourself”….I didn’t even text back. I bought 2 pairs of shoes, and a couple other things, then I took myself out to breakfast.
And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth… Matthew 25:25
I always felt for the servant who hid the talent in the ground. I related to his fear of losing it all, of disappointing others. He valued his fear more than the gift, and what could be gained from that. If you’ve had enough lack in your life it can impact your ability to value yourself appropriately. The times when I’ve worked too hard to please those who may see me, yet don’t understand me. He had to find a safe place to bury the talent, had to dig a deep enough hole, and then stand guard for a year,,, that’s a lot of work for something that doesn’t belong to you.
But when His disciples saw it, they had indignation,saying, to what purpose is this waste. Matthew 26:8
They saw the woman for who she was, a sinner, and opined that her actions could only be considered a waste. Maybe her actions were too grand, too generous for them to be interpreted correctly by equally sinful people.. Perhaps her recognition of who Jesus is, and the comprehension of what he was about to endure, could only leave them muttering feeble excuses about the poor in response to their own lack of worship.
And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not. John 1:5
Pure goodness, and the deeds that follow can easily be misinterpreted if the light hasn’t shone in our own dark places. I’m quite certain that the woman was well aware of her past, her actions, and how people viewed her. What surpassed all of that was her absolute confidence in who Jesus is, and that what He thought of her wasn’t an opinion.The challenge is to take what you have that is whole and valued and break it wide open for God’s glory. What you hold dear must be let loose, what you consider the best thing about yourself should be given to God. Stretch out in God so the light can get to those areas that we’ve buried and guarded for far too long.